Wish . Love . Hope

2011-11-16T02:02:00.000-08:00

I hate it when I have period . I'll definitely have mood swings . Geez .
I'm sorry that you have to deal with my constant bad tempered ):

Forgive me please ?
I love you .

A Moment to Treasure & Remember

2011-11-12T00:23:00.000-08:00

Went to Morib beach with the love one (:
And I shall now let the pictures do the talking .

Watching the sun set with beer & snacks !

RANT

2011-09-07T04:22:00.000-07:00

Can't believe I'm right here blogging a day before QT .
I really need to release stress here if not I sure die suffocating wtf .
I seriously don't get you , not at all . You never give me a chance to understand what's going on . Every time when something happened , you just shut me off and walked away like that . Walao so you think you very cool and mature already lar now . I was just trying to be helpful asking you what's wrong . And you never reply my text either just shut me out from your world completely . Hello you , why should I even care about you if you're just some stranger . I care because you are really important to me ok . I really hate this . You will never ever understand how I feel . You only think about yourself . You won't even care if I die right . I know .

You know what , if you really care you would at least reply . You didn't . But why should I still care so much . This is not the first time you're doing that to me ok . My patience has its limit too . I always forgive and forget because I thought you would change , at least change for me . But forget it , I'm too insignificant to you . You will never ever change . Just like you never trusted me since the beginning of us .

Meh

2011-06-25T02:21:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend keeps telling me I had all kinds of weird and funny dreams lol . Yea which is quite true . The night before , I had a really bad dream -.- I dreamt of my sister telling me I got lung cancer . The conversation went like this :-

Eh jie , you have 肺癌
Why ? ): ): ):
I think it's because 你讲太多废话 -.-

WALAO SO LMAO . I told my boyfriend and he was like laughing all the way . LOL it's quite funny lar actually , except the fact that I was the one who had cancer . And I told my sister and she was ROFL . HAHAHAHAH !

Okay , I really had all those weird #dreams . #LOL

KLCC day & 121 ♥

2011-06-22T05:18:00.000-07:00

Happy 4th month anni honey (: I really had a great day today . Really sorry about this morning , I was mad because I waited too long , I'm learning to be more patient now okay ;p Thanks for the little box of gift and the letter . They suddenly appeared from nowhere , I was really surprised . Laughing non stop at the back seat of the cab . I bet the cab driver already thought that I was insane hmph ;p

Our first stop was Petronas Twin Tower Sky Bridge . We lined up for an hour to get 2 tickets to go up to the sky bridge at 2pm lol . Thank god the tickets weren't sold out when it was our turn , if not I'm gonna kill that stupid petronas people hahahah ! Then we went for brunch , baby ate 2 kebabs and we had Boost (: (:

Next was Petrosains . In order to get cheaper tickets , baby had to lie about his age . Actually not lie lar he memang 17 what ;p HAHAHAHAH ! So we got 2 tickets for only 17 bucks lol . It was fun leh ! I wonder why my friends keep telling me that I will regret going there ._. Oh well I did not , I bet baby was having fun too ! It was worth the time (: (:

Okay so we went back to visit the sky bridge thing after Petrosains . The bridge is located at the 41st and 42nd floor . Whoa , it was awesome . The scenery up there is breathtaking . We took a lot of photos , glad ;) Though the whole thing was only around 20 minutes , it was worth our 6 bucks and one hour of queue lol .

After that , we walked all the way to KL convection centre for Aquaria . The entrance fee for both of us is 68 bucks , expensive much right . We got to see fishes and bugs and all . We only spent an hour there . It was quite small actually , not as big as the one in sentosa island . Hmph . Boyfriend kept complaining the money we paid was so not worth it lol .

Then after dinner we got home and on the way home all the surprises came to me one by one lol . Anyway , I really had a great day with you today . 我爱你 ♥

PS / More photos will be up soon , either in facebook or here (: Have to wait for my precious boy to upload them all , be patient hahahah ! I'm getting better at it already ;p

Bukit Tinggi (:

2011-06-20T21:53:00.000-07:00

Love is magic (;

2011-06-13T08:38:00.000-07:00

I just finished talking to boyfriend on the phone . I sent him a text 10 mins after that he didn't reply me , which means he's already on his way to his dream land . Hah good (: because he has to go for Math class tomorrow . A very sweet conversation with him that lasted for an hour . Oh gosh I have to start worrying about his phone bill already . But he promised me he's getting a Hotlink number tomorrow , which means 1 cent per message is starting tomorrow ! That also means that I won't have to reload twice a day hahahah ! I love you darling (;

I'll meet boyfriend at college tomorrow at 12 yay ! And before that , I'm going to do something I have to do ( some secret stuff I won't reveal now just in case he reads my blog in the morning ;p ) We will have a nice day ahead , definitely . Can't wait for it already actually .

And I'll be going to Sunway Lagoon this Wednesday with my colleagues :D :D I can't wait for that too . I'm going to miss honey really much because I know I won't be able to text , I'm gonna keep my cell in the locker for safety reasons . Hmm I have to get used to it I guess ):

Then Friday will be his bro's birthday . Hope he's gonna celebrate it with his brother (: I wish you a nice day sweetheart . And Saturday will be Bukit Tinggi day HOHOHO :D :D

This week is definitely filled with joy and excitement . Haha :D

The only thing I'm worried about is my period is going to come soon oh gosh , if it's not on Lagoon day that means it's definitely going to be on Bukit Tinggi day , shit :O

2011-06-13T04:12:00.000-07:00

I'm so not me ;p

2011-06-13T00:50:00.000-07:00

I wanna own this (; #dream !

A little something to look at huh ? (; I gave it back tho . Such an expensive and weird gift . Hahah ! It's weird in the sense that it's a gift from a very weird person . Meh , who cares , I gave it back anyway . So not me , but I'm not so tamak ;p

Pms

2011-06-12T01:22:00.000-07:00

I'm just effing not in the mood today , I don't know what's wrong with me . Everything and everyone seems to get on my nerves , very easily .

I miss him so so so much actually . I wanted to see hm so badly . But he's always busy ): Well of course he's busy , he should be doing C3 , not going out with me ._. When we were talking on the phone just now , I have a feeling he's tired of me being tired . I don't know why the feeling suddenly came and it rose a big lump in my throat . I know if I ask him about it , he'll be telling me the same old stories , not good in communicating bla bla . But I really looked forward for today since it's Super Sunday that I could call him for an hour for only 1 buck . Now what I have is just disappointment .

Sigh , forget it . Maybe I'm the one who's not good at communicating after all ):

I can't believe I was actually hoping he could make it to Lagoon with us , though I know he shouldn't be going and it's impossible for it to happen . I'm a selfish girlfriend , I admit . Sorry about that .

Bla bla (;

2011-06-11T21:52:00.000-07:00

I was on the phone talking to my boyfriend yesterday . Well , we talked about all our childhood memories and all . And then talked about the crushes we once had . Whoa , I can't help but feel a bit jealous of her . Maybe I'm just thinking too much but I can actually feel that they really did like each other . I know I shouldn't be jealous since he's now mine and I know he loves me , I don't know why am I so sensitive about it , her .

Maybe I should just totally forget about it , after I rant about it now , I should get over it .
Start my happy week with my awesome him and plans (: (:

Your love makes me lose control (;

2011-06-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

baby i love you !

HAHAH I love you more ;p

nope nope nope , i love you more more more ;p

I love you till infinity and beyond , trust me (;

Geez off .

2011-06-04T23:28:00.000-07:00

Putrajayaaaaa !

That awesome Sepang Gold Coast Resort .

I wanna go so many places during this sem break . But none of it will come true . Hmph I hate this , my miserable dead boring life pfft :/

Insomnia meh ;p

2011-06-04T21:48:00.000-07:00

Couldn't sleep really well last night . Insomnia . Hah joke ! * I was worrying about something that happened to my boyfriend last night . I even had a nightmare about it , hmph . I shall pray for him , that everything is going to be okay .

I love you .

Rotting & growing mushrooms pfft .

2011-06-04T01:22:00.000-07:00

Since I'm so freaking free right now , I should do some updates (:

So today is Saturday . Hah it doesn't even feel like Saturday to me . Everyday is holiday and nothing-to-do day lol . Right , I went out with boyfriend yesterday , to Pavilion our usual spot . He actually risked his life to come out and see me , he had to use his friends as excuse . I feel sorry for him lol . We managed to watch XMen . It was so so I think , maybe because I was easily distracted when my boyfriend sat next to me . I still think Fast 5 is the best movie this year , and Pirates 3 was not bad too . Then we went makan and walked around then balik rumah (: It was a great day yesterday , able to spend my day with him is always good .

Yup so today I woke up in the morning and had mcD for breakfast . My sis has gone for camp this weekend so I'll have to stay at home alone , which means noone will be at home to bother me muahahahah ! :D Well , it also means not having anyone to talk to lol . I've been using my laptop ever since I was done with breakfast . Omg dead bored lol .

Anyway , I got to catch up with a few old friends today . It feels good , knowing what they're up to now and then . First it's Joel (: He replied my text 2 days late , hmph can you imagine how busy he is ;p Okay so he promised me we will go hangout after I'm back from Penang . Good to know he's still alive lol . And next it's Daniel from Ipoh , telling me about his life and all . I actually thought that he had forgotten me completely , now I feel bad assuming him capable of doing that .

Yiying texted me also . HAHAH ! She asked me if I would like to go genting next Saturday since her aunt has free room . Good , fills up my time ! I wanna go theme park so badly already :D But she's not that sure with it first . Pray hard that good news come next !

So in conclusion , next week's plan will be Penang , Karaoke with Proboscis again and Genting , if possible (:
I should start packing the stuff I have to bring to Penang . I'm lazy tho .

I'm going to miss baby really much . I'll only be seeing him on the 16th , which means one whole week and 4 days more meh , I hate this hmph .

2011-06-02T00:59:00.000-07:00

To you-know-who-you-are

2011-05-31T00:50:00.000-07:00

baby ! baby ! baby ! i love you ! i love you ! i love you ! €€enjoy your time heh ;) i wanna see you so badly , wanna be w you so badly :( i wish i could fly so that i can go sunway and meet you up girlfriend :) love youu !

2011-05-24T04:38:00.000-07:00

Guess who ? :P

Boyfriend wanted me to edit our photos and I have plenty of time HAH !

If you're a pencil , I'll be your paper ♥

2011-05-21T23:10:00.000-07:00

Cute dinosaur giving his awesome face :P

Happy 3 months anniversary darling (:

Actually I miss you like crazy right now . I miss everything of yours .
Life is unfair for keeping us away until next Thursday , and 20 days more after that .
But distance is just a test to see how far can love travels .
I love you and I believe together , we will walk through all the doubts people give us .

PS/ I'm sorry about everything this morning . I was being sensitive and emotional . I was thinking too much , hmph . I will wait for your forever love (:

Holidays , Plans , Fun (:

2011-05-17T00:41:00.000-07:00

HOHOHOHO Exams gonna finish by next week and term break is starting soon !
I have tonnes of plans :D

1. Watch Fast & Furious 5 & Pirates of the Caribbean 3 !
2. Karaoke and bowling with Proboscis , just the four of us HEE .
3. Must go Sunway Lagoon with Delta people .
4. Shopping spree with Kher Shin & Ee Vonne ( As if I have money , meh :p )
5. I wanna go picnicccccc D:
6. KL city tour with my boyfriend , he promised :D :D ( but who knows if he'll break it )
7. Bukit Tinggi trip with Proboscis and boyfriend ! (:
8. Get a bb as soon as possible ( preferably , White one )

HAHAHAHAH So many , I know I know I'm tamak :p
Right , won't be able to see boyfriend after the 26 until 16 . Haih . We better treasure the time we have next Thursday ): ):

2011-05-10T04:37:00.003-07:00

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Breakfast box of love ♥

2011-05-09T05:48:00.000-07:00

Life has been good , except the fact that Edexcel is just one week away . Yes , ONE WEEK . I feel the rush now . Shit , better study hard .

HAHAHAH being a good girlfriend , I made my boyfriend breakfast today (: It's a box with a heart-shaped hard boiled egg , lots of strawberries & tomatoes and honey lemon juice . Meh he's a lucky guy lol ! I'm gonna fetch more Crabtree & Evelyn's flower honey , it's damn nice . ( At first I thought it was some sort of skin product , don't blame me , it's C&E right , how would I know lol ) . Oh right I told my friends I did breakfast for him and they kept asking him if he got stomach ache ._. Pfft . Thank god he didn't :P

No photos taken hmph . My baby is such a dinosaur that he ate up everything before I had a chance to take a snap . Next time (;

2011-05-06T03:58:00.000-07:00

Dark photo ):

Boyfriend with his dinosaur face (:

Short

2011-05-06T03:47:00.000-07:00

Thor is an awesome movie . Really . Though I didn't really get what was the story line about in the beginning , cause we were late HOHOHOHO :P
Baby and I had a great day today . Right , a day with his new girlfriend . Hmph !

Short post today , don't have the mood :/ Am facing a really complicated dilemma right now . I'm off !

Together , we are storm .

2011-05-05T03:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes , you just don't get what you wanted in life . Life is unfair . Always .

Lucky boyfriend got his berry already . Well , actually I'm kinda happy for him of course , since his ex phone is already in a really bad condition LOLOL ! No offence in case you're reading this HEE :P

I always wanted a berry , ever since last year . Actually I started saving since last year , but I guess I overspent this few months so yea , now I have to start from the beginning D: D: My parents would never get a berry for me . They just won't . Oh well , I'm 18 already , if they don't I can get it for myself . Right . I don't know when though . My boyfriend has ultra nice parents * envyyy * .

PTC went on kinda well today . The only bad thing was that there wasn't a queuing system . Weird . So everyone was like sitting on chairs aimlessly and waiting . I waited for 30 minutes before my turn to see Ms Lydia and another 20 minutes to see Mdm Siti . They didn't actually talk bad about me . I was expecting really bad comments . Ahh good day .

Holiday plans are going on really well . I have 3 trips . Penang & Sunway lagoon with the Deltas and Bukit Tinggi with Proboscis . HAHAHAH . But gonna study really hard this few days and score Edexcel .

Phone has 4 cents left ): ): Boyfriend said we could talk online , but where is he now ? D: D:
I miss him a lot .

Trust is a word of great power

2011-05-04T06:10:00.000-07:00

I realised trust in a very important aspect in relationships .

In any relationship , the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond . So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours .

If you say you can trust someone than you are admitting to something even greater than love . Trust involves all your thoughts and emotions to be given to someone so they can have . Trusting someone is knowing that you can be hurt so bad that no one can even know .

I wish I could say something that will make you trust me , but if you give me the time I will prove it . Really ♥

On my Labour's Day holiday

2011-05-02T01:24:00.000-07:00

I went back college today for Watch & Share video thingie . I reached college at 9.45 and noone was there . The college gate was locked ._. I was waiting and waiting . Then Hui Yi told me Eunice was already inside the college . Then I tried to climb in . First attempt , FAILED . I was smarter the second time , I threw my bag in first . MUAHAHAHAH . Oh well , I finally got into college . And you know what , the security guard opened the front gate at 10 . FML .

We were like playing in the Recreation Room until 11 plus only we started taking videos . I couldn't stop laughing , NG for like twice HAH sorry Jack ! ;P Then after that we walked to KL Sentral for lunch HEE (: I had my super satisfying Pure Double Choc Ice Blended w whipped cream @ The Coffee Bean . Oh well , I was hungry when I reached home ._. Then I ate nasi lemak , late lunch though .

Right , I played with my sister's make up stuff . Drew eyeliners for my sister and myself ( one eye only ) . I only have double eye lid one side ._.

Praying hard that internet connection will be good tonight so that I can skype with baby . PUH-LEASE D:

Untitled

2011-05-01T09:03:00.001-07:00

Yo ! I don't know why I'm addicted to blogging again . Gosh .
Actually wanted to post some photos here so that my blog won't look so boring . Fine , stupid internet connection just doesn't allow me to do so . Geez . I should consider changing to P1Wimax , hmm not sure whether that's the right one , something like that one lar :p

I really should go sleep . Gotta wake up at 8 tmr . Hmm .
#nowplaying 林俊杰握不住的他 . Nice song ! Recommend :D

想你也能变成嗜好 (:

2011-05-01T08:47:00.001-07:00

Baby came all the way from his friend's house to find me at Bukit Jalil (: I feel bad heh , I know I know I'm a spoilt girlfriend . We went to the park next to Sri Petaling station HAHAH . We were like walking all around the park . Very very nice . I love you baby . Thanks for everything you did today .

Oh Labour's Day holiday tomorrow . Which means I won't be able to see you . Pfft . I will definitely miss you , I miss you now already .
Right , am going to col tomorrow for Watch & Share . Why on earth ?! I should enjoy holiday too ! But sadly can't ): Need to finish this moral project , tomorrow is the due date already . Yup , we are super last minute . But who cares HEE (:

Baby sent me a mail on facebook this morning . I just read . Blame it to bad internet connection . Hmph . HAHAH I wonder if you're reading my blog , okay maybe you won't . Just wanna tell you I love you !
( Right , Kher Shin complains that my blog is filled with you , HAHAHAH , sorry readers , love is in the air ! I quote her :P )

Nights everyone (:

Two good fighters we are :D

2011-04-30T10:23:00.000-07:00

What a great fight . Hmph I have both my eyes bengkak , eye bags protruding . Oh well , I feel so much better after talking things through . What a great relief that nothing bad happened after all . I feel so immature now HEE (; And I heard him crying actually , for the first time . I couldn't see tho . Oh of course I wouldn't bear to see him crying , I would melt lol .

And my mum actually knew that I was crying in my room . She asked my sister what happened . Oh thank god my sister didn't tell her what happened . Then right , she assumed it was all my fault that I keep on controlling my boyfriend . Since when did I control and spy on my boyfriend ! Meh ._. Now my mum is all on his side . Pfft . Isn't she supposed to support me instead ?

Yealar whatever lar . I don't care anyway . As well as I have my 2 boyfriends with me (;
Goodnight lovely world .

BORED .

2011-04-30T01:45:00.000-07:00

I'm being a really good girl these days . All I do at home is study study and study . Right , finals is coming in 2 weeks time I feel so unprepared ! Ugh , blame it to my baby . He always distracts me . Joke ! PTC is like less than a week away :o Wonder what will the lecturers tell my mum huh . They sure say I talk alot lol !

Oh I did some bio revision today heh . Proud !
And great , I need to go back college on Labour's Day . What on earth man . Yup that's my life . Gotta finish up my moral project already . Pfft .
I miss my dinosaur right now , texted him but he didn't reply D: I wonder what he's doing . It's not like I wanna check on him . Knowing where he is makes me feel better , I'll know where my heart can go .

I feel quite left out nowadays , despite being in different classes . Right , I know their schedules . I just don't know how , sometimes I think they're ignoring me . Really . Asking me to go somewhere on the last minute , you think I can go so far ? -.-

2011-04-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry . You should have told me you're feeling insecure and unsure about us earlier . I thought we could talk about everything ? Sigh D:

A day to remember

2011-04-17T00:26:00.000-07:00

Thank you thank you thank you so much to those who wished me happy birthday (:
I did had a blast that day , screwed Ielts and Moral I guess . Managed to go out with boyfriend after Moral exam . Baby , I love the huge domo HEH :D Thank you thank you I love you !
And Ranee & Joel , big thank you to you guys for going through all the trouble getting me the GREEN watch I wanted for so long ! Didn't expect my dream to come true , so fast LOL !
Will never forget Proboscis , thanks for the necklace & top , very nice lar :) Love you all !

2011-04-12T21:41:00.000-07:00

I couldn't stop tearing last night whenever I thought about what you said . I couldn't help feeling you were too far beyond reaching . Maybe you were feeling the same way too , that's why this thing came lingering in your mind . I have no idea how to give you reassurance , but what I said is true and came from the deepest side of my heart . I love you alot .

51 days (:

I miss his sweet smile

2011-04-12T04:37:00.000-07:00

What a day D:
He looked so sad when he walked away from me , it nearly brought tears to my eyes . Today , he never looked back . I wonder what was playing in his mind . Sigh .

No alarm :/

2011-04-10T23:30:00.000-07:00

My annoying shit period came , like finally , at a wrong timing . I was having C2 and terpaksa balik and retake the exam soon enough . Geez . The pain was unbearable . It just got a little better now . Thank god . I need to study chem (:

My darling was being such a sweetheart today . I know he's worried and all , that's why I didn't tell him I actually felt like fainting . I didn't want him to be paranoid and all . He's already very worried , and he has econs after C2 , of course I want him to focus and study econs , it's an important subject . And he couldn't do anything for me but to let me bite / hit him anyway :P

Oh well , he's not getting his dslr on Thursday already , since they don't sell it at the Nikon showroom place at Times Square . He's getting it somewhere near his house , sometime when he's free I think ( which is not so soon ): Fine , I'm okay with it lar actually , just can't wait for him to show me his new girlfriend . Hee :D

April is a good month (:

2011-04-10T06:15:00.000-07:00

Whoa , today morning 3 hours call was insane . I slept at 4.30 in the morning and my boyfriend at 5 ._. This is like the craziest thing we've done ever since we're together :D

HAH I just can't stop missing you right now <3 See you tomorrow !

2011-04-08T04:48:00.000-07:00

Super LIKEEE :D

2011-04-08T03:35:00.000-07:00

Jun Pyo: There, look down now.

Jan Di: Wow! It’s a heart.

Jun Pyo: It really shaped like a heart. I told myself that when I found a girl whom I like, I must bring her here. Did you see? My heart?

2011-04-08T03:20:00.001-07:00

Sometimes , it's kinda creepy to be home alone heh ! I'm currently browsing through websites on Fraser's Hill hotels . Omgosh there are only 3 hotels at Fraser's Hill . Oh oh .... I'll see what I can do . Ciao (:

Boyfriend , sometimes it's just hard to tell you how much I love you .

List of to-do's (:

2011-04-06T05:28:00.000-07:00

Okay , things to do after Trials ( which is apparently next Thursday ) :

Hang out with boyfriend . He promised we could go eat sushi since I've been nagging him about it long time ago . And he's getting D3100 that day .
Hang out with Proboscis . To celebrate my belated birthday lar of course :P
Go shopping @ Tesco . Weird huh ? F&F is in Tesco now heh . I might get some cheap stuff there . I need jeans & cardi !
Go makan with Hui Yi & Min Yi (: To celebrate our birthdays HEH !
Relax and breathe of course .

I fooled you .

2011-04-04T06:41:00.001-07:00

Okay , since I'm back blogging again , I'll blog about what happened on April Fool's day , which was on last Friday HEH :D

Oh well , I got pranked by my beloved classmates early in the morning . Normally our chem class on Friday will be in 2.something . Then I happened to ask Min Yi where will our chem class be . She was like " 3.3 lar , you don't know meh " . So I was like " Oh , oh okay " Didn't suspect a single thing . Then I got a text from Jun Shern asking where will our chem class be . So I told him it will be in 3.3 . When it was nearly 9 , I walked up to 3.3 with my boyfriend , then Kean Heng came telling me our chem class is at 2.3 . I was like " Oh , change already ? " Then Khai Hoong told me it was a lie that chem class is at 3.3 ._. Okay , then they refused to let me tell Jun Shern . Oh well , so Jun Shern came into chem class really late cause he was waiting outside 3.3 like some loner and didn't suspect a thing LOLOL !

So after class , I went Pav with my boyfriend , again . Well apparently , we go there every Friday after class . HEH ! We bought tickets , then went Nando's . We both ordered quarter chicken . Then when the dish came , I decided to prank him , since I didn't make fun of him yet . I opened the salt bottle and poured salt on his chicken . Wait , I didn't expect there would be so much coming out from the bottle ._. I poured half of it , by accident . Then we kept on laughing , well I kept on laughing . It was actually damn embarrassing HAHAH :D We ended up sharing mine LOL !

When I fall in love , I fall hard .

2011-04-03T00:48:00.000-07:00

BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED
I get bored really easily nowadays . I should be studying bio , I just couldn't concentrate when you're not here . Geez . This is kinda bad . Trials is on Thursday . Fml .

2011-03-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

2011-03-26T06:28:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone , you freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn’t fall ?
Sometimes when they talk to you , do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself ?
It’s not that you want it , but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time .
Would you be brave and admit your feelings ?
What if it’s simply not meant to be , do you give up ?
Or keep trying and end up with nothing ?
Well , that’s love . Its irony speaks , but you got to take risks to get answers .
When you meet someone and you gradually fall in love with that person , try to express your love to him because every moment you wasted would be equal to tons of regret in the end .
Don’t wait until it’s too late to tell someone how much you love , how much you care .
Because when they are gone , no matter how loud you shout and cry they won’t hear you anymore .

Speechless

2011-03-22T03:58:00.000-07:00

I didn't expect today would end just like that . Oh well , I was expecting too much I guess .

One month and still counting HEH :D

2011-03-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

Oh well I'm early , heh who cares :P
We have been together for one whole month (: It suddenly reminds me of the first time I saw you , it was on Yiying's birthday . I was at the locker with Mike waiting for Zhen & Ting to come over and surprise Yiying . Then I saw you walked pass . My first impression was like " OMG this guy looks so like Huxia ! " . Then we had this very awkward group ' date ' (: I remember telling my friends about you , saying that you're good looking and all ( PS . Don't perasan ;P )

But to tell you the truth , I never expect we would be together one day . It was like a dream to me . Oh well , it's still quite dream-like to me until now . I remember the first time you held my hand . Tell you what , my heart was beating really fast against my chest that moment . Ahh well , the first time you said I love you and the first time you kissed me . It was on Ob Night :D

Being with you , everyday seems like a fairytale (; Although it's just our first month , we have been through a lot together . Hah , the accident and all .

All in all , Happy First Month Anni to both of us :D
I love you unconditionally , for all your good points and flaws . I love you for who you are .
By the way , answering your question about what I was thinking on the train today , I was actually thinking about how am I supposed to write this heh ;D

Skype hee .

2011-03-20T02:29:00.000-07:00

HAH I like skyping with my boyfriend :D I don't even feel bored seeing him doing his homework . Think I can stare at him like that for days LOLOL !
I love you darling (;

Bang , there goes crash .

2011-03-19T07:25:00.000-07:00

Okay , Kai Rong and I got into an accident , like 2 hours ago . He drove all the way from Ampang to find me . So we went Plaza Oug to walk around . We parked our car at the roadside . And that happened when we were supposed to go back . It happened just so fast , we didn't even know there was a car behind , cause before that there wasn't . That car just popped out right behind us . My boyfriend reversed too fast and couldn't brake soon enough .

Well , we went down the car and talked to the driver . Thank god he was a nice guy eh ! We gave him our contact number and address . The problem now is that we're supposed to pay him 400 plus for the repair , and we are currently very broke already . Hopefully everything is going to be fine , and that uncle would send his car for repair a bit later so that we'll have time to get enough money to pay him . If not , we're going to be so dead .

When I got home , think I looked a bit pale and stuff , my mum asked me what happened . Whoa . I didn't dare to tell her , of course . If not I don't know how crazy and worried will she be . Can't imagine . I'm not going to spill this to her or dad . I called my sis though . Told her everything . She was paranoid ., which was kinda normal reaction .

I'm still a bit scared right now . Can't stop thinking about it . Pray hard (;

We heart it .

2011-03-19T02:11:00.000-07:00

I want to be that girl he’s scared to lose.
The one that he can’t walk away from knowing she’s mad at him.
The one who he can’t fall asleep without her voice being he last one he hears.
The one he wouldn’t know what to do without.

22 (:

2011-03-15T06:06:00.000-07:00

Let’s grow old together… beginning with today.
Let’s work slowly with each other and build a relationship that we can both enjoy being a part of.
Let’s share love and understand that neither of us is perfect; we are both subject to human frailties.
Let’s hold each other close and whisper though the night—pledging our love, honoring our commitment.
Let’s encourage each other to pursue our dreams, even when we’re weary from trying.
Let’s expect the best that we both have to give and still love when we fall short of our expectations.
Let’s be friends and respect each other’s individual personality and give one another room to grow.
Let’s be candid with each other and point out strengths and weaknesses.
Let’s understand each other’s personal philosophy, even if we don’t agree.
Let’s lie awake long into the night sharing our innermost secrets.
Let’s be friends as well as lovers.
Let’s laugh at time and plan with each other and wonder how we ever got along without this love we’ve found.
Let’s never take for granted these moments that we’ve shared, but always be reminded of how intensely we have learned to live, how completely we have learned to love.
Let’s grow old together… and look back on life and smile.
I love you for what you are, but I love you yet more for what you are going to be.

2011-03-15T05:38:00.001-07:00

2011-03-15T05:29:00.000-07:00

Something is wrong

2011-01-15T07:25:00.000-08:00

I seriously wonder what is wrong with me these days . I'm totally losing myself . And this thing is getting out of control . I have no idea what is going on now . I guess I'm just stepping into a black hole . I'm blind , yea love is blind ugh !

2011-01-11T03:55:00.000-08:00

It's amazing when someone comes into your life , and you expect nothing out of it but there right in front of you , is everything you ever need (;

2010-12-29T05:06:00.000-08:00

I’m not the silly romantic you think.
I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars.
I don’t want gemstones or gold.
I have those things already.

I want a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved.

2010-12-26T01:29:00.000-08:00

Special Edi (:

2010-12-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

Kawans (:

2010-12-25T23:31:00.000-08:00

Oh , how I wish Zhen & Ling went with us (;

Jodi Picoult (;

2010-12-18T07:24:00.000-08:00

“When you loved someone, you put their needs before your own. No matter how inconceivable those needs were; no matter how fucked up; no matter how much it made you feel like you were ripping yourself into pieces.”

2010-12-15T03:40:00.000-08:00

Rapunzel :D

2010-12-05T05:06:00.000-08:00

Flower gleam and glow
Let the power shine
Make the clock reverse
Bring back what once was mine
Heal what has been hurt
Change the fate's design
Save what have been lost
Bring back what once was mine
What once was mine

Shattered

2010-12-02T20:18:00.000-08:00

You're bad for my health . You keep breaking my heart .

I should block you on facebook so that I don't have to see you news feeds anymore .

I'll be Switzerland (:

2010-12-01T03:16:00.000-08:00

I saw this girl on my way home today , somewhere near Mid Valley . Oh gosh , I was scared stiff ! She was like a split image of Lee Ling ! ( Ling , I hope you're reading ) Damn scary with big round eyes , fringe , fair skin . They look alike !

Add Maths was okay (; I wish I did well . Physics is tomorrow , and after Physics I'll be heading to Mid Valley to watch Rapunzel . Yes , Rapunzel . Strange right , I'm watching cartoon with my sister . When I told my mum I'll be going out to watch Rapunzel with my sis , she was like " WHATTT ?! WHY RAPUNZEL ?! Well , I love Rapunzel . I remembered telling ' Rapunzel ' in a story telling competition before LOL !

Big piece of shit and oh shit , it's getting bigger (:

2010-11-29T03:36:00.000-08:00

I need strength , to keep alive . I don't want to count down until spm ends . That's not the way . I should have a lil more faith in myself that I'm going to survive , even better , smile through this big piece of shit hah ! ROAR !

To the crazyyyy Jay's fans out there ,
Ugh I hate you guys for no better reason , you guys bought all the ticks and think you very cool is it ?!@#$% Whatever man , 230 to sit so high up there is really not worth it . I'm gonna ditch Jay's concert rawr .

Sick ._.

2010-11-28T22:15:00.001-08:00

My cough is getting worst . I thought it would be better and in the morning I even went up to June " JUNNEEE ! I'm so much better ! " But then , ugh , it gets worst after coming back home , which is now . I cough at least 5 times per minute . FML . And everytime I'm trying to cough my flame out , it hurts my chest as if there is something poking to my heart , ugh I really hate that .

Maths was okay . I did a few careless and stupid mistakes in paper one . Hopefully no mistake in paper two . I wanna get A+ (: Moral is tomorrow , can't wait . Oh , I should start memorizing my moral nilais , 36 of them , ugh I'm so lazy . I know I'm getting lazier day by day . I just don't have the mood to study , it's holiday , everyone is enjoying it . Ohgosh , don't rain . It has been raining so frequently nowadays . Last night , the rain was so heavy and loud , I couldn't sleep .

Yea thats all about it , bye world . Off for moral (:

♥

2010-11-28T04:04:00.001-08:00

Find someone who isn't afraid that they miss you .
Someone who knows that you're not perfect , but treats you as if you are .
Someone whose biggest fear is losing you .
One who gives their heart completely .
Someone who says I love you and means it .
Last but not least , find someone you wouldn't mind waking up with you in the morning , seeing your wrinkles and your grey hair , but still falls in love with you all over again .

Count .

2010-11-28T02:17:00.000-08:00

BM
~~English~~
~~Sejarah~~
~~Maths~~
~~Moral~~
~~Add Maths~~
~~Physics~~
~~Chemistry~~
~~Biology~~
EST

Oh gosh a few more to go , after Biology I'll party like it's the end of it already (:

2010-11-22T03:04:00.001-08:00

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love never wanted me, but i took it anyway
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Lavinia Stamps on-line shop: Birds
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2010-11-18T23:32:00.000-08:00

Sweet escape , ugh /;

2010-11-18T23:23:00.000-08:00

I wanna run away from spm );

Panic overwhelmed me , closed my throat .

2010-11-12T05:24:00.001-08:00

Aww , I'm so happy for her (:

2010-11-11T05:15:00.000-08:00

A Midsummer's Night Dream (:

2010-11-05T03:41:00.000-07:00

Jayden

I scampered across the room , and saw him there . He stood by the window , so still that I wondered if he was breathing . His arms crossed protectively in front of his wide broad chest . His back was facing me , tensed . I knew he heard me . He sighed , so faintly that I wondered did he meant for me to hear it . He turned around now , and beamed . The smile was so alluring that it was like an antidote to me . I couldn’t pull my eyes away from him . I was dazzled by the way his features perfectly fitted on his face . I swore my heart just skipped a few beats , I could fly . When I managed to regain my consciousness , he suddenly disappeared from my sight . I shrieked , but he never came back . When I opened my eyes , it was only dawn . I remembered this dream by hard .

Kris

I waited for her as I knew she would come . It was hard to resist the way I felt for her now . The pain was unbearable being away from her longer that I had expected . She was like a potent drug that I couldn’t keep away from . It was dangerous , for both of us , and unhealthy . I heard her footsteps coming from the door . I led out a sigh . As I turned around , there she stood , ten steps away from me . She looked fragile , her cheekbones held upright that when I smiled at her , she flashed back her visible dimple from her right cheek . Her skin tone was ivory that when she blushed , the pink cheeks were extraordinary obvious . She looked pale , even paler than the last time I saw her . I immediately knew that my friendship with her grew into deep affection . I hadn’t realised that the feelings was so strong that it made me hard to breathe . Then , I heard her screamed . I tried to run forward to reach her . I couldn’t , my legs were as if glued to the ground . I realised I was melting away . Her whimper left a hole in my heart as I faded ……

By , eau de Nil .

When I was young, I thought the sun would sink down in the sea when it's sunset.

2010-11-04T06:29:00.000-07:00

2010-09-27T02:46:00.000-07:00

Well , I thought I wouldn't abandon my blog for such a long time . It seems like I have nothing to blog about . I actually can't wait for tomorrow :D Amazing huh ?

It's just a normal usual outing , why are you so excited ?
Ohmygosh when's the last time I went out with Probs ?! Months ago leh ! Of course I'm thrilled !

☺

2010-09-23T02:08:00.000-07:00

Released

2010-09-10T10:02:00.000-07:00

Akhirnya , aku terlepas daripada cengkamanmu . Aku rela dengan takdir Tuhan .

Touches the deepest side of my heart

2010-09-09T09:10:00.000-07:00

AVATAR is a nice movie c:
I just watched , LOL I'm outdated , I know I am .

Quandary

2010-09-07T02:07:00.000-07:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood ,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler , long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth .

Sometimes , it's not good to face a situation where you have to choose from the options you were given . Every option has its pros and cons , and choosing one option may make a big difference in your life . It makes it difficult for you to decide which and what to choose . I'm not a fan of making decisions . I am a person who couldn't even decide what colour of shirt to buy in the mall . Thats why I'm facing a huge dilemma right now . I don't want to regret in the future , thinking of the choice I didn't make now ):

Nice battle c:

2010-09-06T08:31:00.000-07:00

Well , Topshop vs Zara , in the end , Topshop won :D
Oh , I was talking about the pants my sis and I wore today . We threw it into the washing machine and my sis' precious white colour Zara pants dyed into pink :D Thanks to my orangey-pink pants LOL LOL LOL ! She's still talking about it now , non-stop ever since she was scolded by my mum , LOL ! She only wore it a few times , hahah so pathetic . Send my regards , xoxo ♥

2010-09-05T06:40:00.000-07:00

Let's flip a coin , heads you're mine , tails i'm yours ♥

Obsessed ♥

2010-09-03T05:06:00.000-07:00

Ohmy , I love that guy , Jeremy ♥ He's from Red fm baby c:

Malaysia c:

2010-08-30T03:51:00.000-07:00

I am afraid I would not be able to post it tmr c: I'll do it now instead .

Happy Hari Kebangsaan !

Malaysia is a great place . A place I was born and am living in for 17 years . This is where I belong , my heart belongs , eventhough I might be going overseas in the future years . I am sure I would miss the people and the food we have here . Anyone disagrees ? I supposed not .

I feel so sorry to miss the patriotism day in my school , hahah :D I'm at home studying the WHOLE day . Amazing huh ?

Semoga Malaysia akan menjadi sebuah negara yang cemerlang , gemilang dan terbilang untuk hari - hari seterusnya . Saya cinta padamu ♥

Gloooomyyy ):

2010-08-26T05:33:00.000-07:00

I'm tired . Tired of waiting for the time to come . I think I don't even care now ):

On One's Uppers , yet gleeful :D

2010-08-20T05:57:00.000-07:00

Who are we ? The TopShoppers :D
There's where my money went , be sad but be glad too when you glanced into your wardrobe . They're all full !

I feel bad for what I've done , but that is the only way to get out of it . I DO NOT want to think about it c: I will keep them deep in my heart .

What you do if there's only 20 bucks left in your purse ?
Ask your sister for money :D

Thanks Ran , for the cash . I'll pay you back asap ? Hahah !

Indignant .

2010-08-16T05:14:00.000-07:00

I was so freaking pissed this afternoon . Oh well , I was very . It's just that I have no way to express it out except kept repeating it to Kai Ting the whole lunch period . It was a disaster ._.

Oh , Stella Maris' concert was amazing c: My sister danced really well . So is people like Yan Han , Alison , Gertrude , Yong Chun and lots more . They did a fantastic job :D I'm so proud of them .

Topshop fever c:

2010-08-13T06:27:00.001-07:00

Looks like I really have to stop going Topshop , especially the one in Pavilion . But I can't stop myself c: My mind controls it all . Thanks to people like Vilyn and Ee Vonne who ' controls ' me . Bad influence baby . Thats why I'm broke again .

It's August . I remembered .

Un-decided

2010-08-02T03:48:00.000-07:00

Hello Earth :D
I think I seriously need ilham to draft my speech tomorrow . Gosh it's tomorrow . One year of being an assistant secretary flew by so quickly , so fast that I didn't even notice . Oh , what am I going to say . How to begin ? I'm nervous , LOL ! People , can we share share the draft and say the same thing ? I shall say what Ting said , since she'll be the first right :D

Lucifer !

2010-07-31T03:03:00.001-07:00

Flower Drum Song ♥

2010-07-27T04:36:00.000-07:00

):

2010-07-26T04:50:00.000-07:00

I can't believe I'm this kind of person in your eyes . You guys just wouldn't trust me right ? How well do you know me ?

Am so proud of my eyes c:

2010-07-19T04:26:00.000-07:00

I have a feeling that I would fall down on the stage when I was dancing . And I don't dare to have eye contact with Vetton too , he always looks so fierce as if he's going to eat me up on stage . So scary :C
We got so bored during concert practice and Kenneth started measuring people's eyes , lol with a ruler ._. I know it's lame , but thats what lame people do c: I'm so proud to say that my eye is 1.3 cm . Eh it's consider as good okay , cause Yiying's one is only 0.6 cm ? LOL ! No offence ying ! Small eyes are way better c:

Until my heart stops beating ♥

2010-07-18T03:55:00.000-07:00

I went to watch Eclipse yesterday :D
Top 5 in my list :
1. Edward
2. Jasper
3. Jacob
4. Seth
5. Riley ♥

Money crisis ):

2010-07-17T02:53:00.000-07:00

I need to stop myself from going to online shops to check on nice dresses and tops . Because I will feel my wardrobe is so not complete ): And the urge of getting more and more stuff arose . Which means that I will have to spend money . Again . Noway . I'm not letting this to happen to me . No ! I want to save money . I am serious this time . I want 5-digit :D So that I can afford buying stuff I wanted . Not 'loaning' from my mum and asking from my dad . I feel quite bad . And I won't dare to buy things I really wanted .

So I came out with this saving plan :D
1. Spend only RM3 per day in school .
2. No buying stuff I already have .
3. No going shopping every week , go fortnightly .
4. Always record down what I bought , if better keep the receipt .
5. ~~No visiting online boutique websites .~~
6. Go vegetarian c: ( Saves the environment and $$ as well )

It's me .

2010-07-15T02:47:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I got this random post in my email and I did the quiz immediately :D Some are not AS accurate though , but the highlighted ones are right :D

Tahniah ! Aku telah terpilih ):

2010-07-15T02:21:00.000-07:00

The NS thing totally ruined my mood . Why ? Why ? Why ? Why out of so many people I am the one who got chosen . I can't accept the fact . Seriously . I so need to find a way out . But is there any ways out ? Or it's just fated that I have to go to NS and die there ?

Eh , I kena NS .
Then go lar .
I don't want to go .
I'll figure out a way .

Dad - me

And I cried in the bathroom when I was bathing . Thinking of all possibilities that I might have to go . I wish , I wish I can get a medical cert somewhere and skip it . Pihak kerajaan , please forgive me that I'm so not patriotic , you can't just force people to do what they refused to right ?

2010-07-09T06:22:00.000-07:00

I thought I'd let go . Looks like I didn't . Not at all . Seeing someone similar races my heartbeat . Stupid GL , why do you look so him ? It makes me think that I'm seeing him every day .

说了再见才发现再也见不到...

Slothful

2010-07-08T03:46:00.000-07:00

HAHAH , I realised I like messing things up . Before that , I always thought that I'm a quite organised person . I'm wrong . I did clumsy homeworks , and like messing up my wardrobe and study room . I am the one who did all these . Tonnes of reference books are piling up on my desk and I don't even bother to gather them and put in the shelf or something . I have plenty of time these days . I am just a lazy person ):

And I am supposed to swim three times a week to train my stamina and stuff . But I DID NOT . Not this week . I thought I am quite busy . But actually I finished up all my homework in school and just lazed around when I reached home . I am that lazy . Just like now . I don't even bother to pack my bag that I'm bringing to Zhen's house this Saturday . Leave it till tomorrow ? LOL ! I have tuition until 7.30 and I will end up packing it on Saturday morning , which will be too late cause I normally wake up late every Saturday . Oh I picked my outfit though , cause we sort of planned them during concert practice . HAHAH ! We'll see :D

That adorable girl :D

2010-07-02T05:24:00.000-07:00

Zhen , why are you faster than me ?
Cause my spoon is big .

I immediately broke into laughter :D She's so cute lar , hahah !